I have a process that is very internal, happens every year, starting at about the solstice and intensifies as the calendar year draws to a close. I know the year end is an arbitrary system of time that humans developed, but I have been connected to it ever since I became aware of it, so my body, mind, and spirit respond to this cycle of time. I usually get very introverted and crave quiet…it happened again this year. I used the time to begin reflecting and thinking on my word for the year.
Last year I worked with the word presence, and got some beautiful, profound lessons in it. Some were difficult and harsh, while others were ecstatic and magical. It was a good word for the year, and was supported by a cast of characters called, patience, sacred, love, possibility, spaciousness and beauty. Wonderful words, wonderful lessons!
The events of the last few months of 2014 began to shape the word for 2015 and it’s support team. It became very clear as the year drew to a close that Trust (with a capital T) was the leading word for the year ahead. I have found that other words join in as the year unfolds, but already trust has been joined by expansion, vulnerability and adventure. This will no doubt be a powerful year. I can feel it already. I have spent time with my dear astrologer and friend, Gretchen, I see how the planets are lining up. I have a taste of things to come. Yet, that word from last year and the lessons learned call me back to presence and now to Trust..
Already in the first days of the year, I have learned something about Trust. I have learned that when Spirit calls, I listen and I trust, whether I really feel like it or not. I have learned yet again that most of the time, I just need to show up in the world (with some preparation, like the right poems) and Spirit takes care of the rest.
I am beginning to get the capital T already, this level of trust is about big things, from big sources, aka Divine Spirit. Which brings me to the question of who and what do we trust?
I have read hundreds of books; self help, personal growth, spiritual, inspirational, scientific, from many, many different authors. I have learned to read these books, keeping in mind what a wise teacher of mine said once, keep an open mind, but don’t let your brain fall out. I realize that all of these authors are simply writing from their point of view and experience, and I must always remember that.
I have listened to well meaning and wise friends. Again, all of the wonderful advice and wisdom comes from their own story, their own life journey, not mine. All of it is valuable and rich, but must always be taken in and measured with the wisdom and truth from my highest self and Spirit.
The same is true for the wisest of the wise, my spiritual teachers. They guide me and show me the way based on their path and their knowledge. My journey with trust and growth is to measure that wisdom against my internal wise ones and guides. Does the teaching resonate? Does the wisdom ring true? I would advise anyone who comes to me for spiritual guidance and teaching to do the same. My teachings come from Spirit but still they must be measured against your teachings from Spirit. If it is truly from Spirit it is mostly in alignment, and is clear to see.
In 2015, let’s not blindly follow the leaders, the teachers, the books and latest truths. Let’s take in all the wisdom, and see what rings true for us. I know this requires a certain level of development, awareness of shadow, projection, fear, and consciousness about all the other juicy stuff that gets in the way of clear seeing and knowing. Welcome to the ongoing journey of life, those things will always be true, always need to be in our consciousness. I know it is not a simple process, and I am somewhat making it out to be that. But really it just comes back to the T word….Trust in the whole process, in the whole unfolding mystery.
What I can see already is that Trust at the level I am to learn it and live it, comes from my guides, Divine Spirit and my highest self. The questions will be; Am I listening?, Am I ready to hear what they say?, Do I believe it?, Will I live from it? Already in less than 48 hours, the word has brought up all kinds of fear and doubt. Part of me wants to retreat, call it bullshit and pick another word, a fun one perhaps. The other part of me says this is the word of your life, are you ready to live it? Trust with a capital T
It’s not like I won’t read anymore books, I have a stack of about 10 of them right next to me, and another 10 on the kindle. It’s not like I won’t listen to my dear, wise friends or seek out the guidance from my teachers and therapists, because I will. I will keep an open mind, listen and learn, and I will take all that information and wisdom and bring it to the wisest council I know, the circle of Grandmothers and animal guides, led by Divine Spirit, that lives in me and guides me from the spirit world. And I will listen, I will believe, I will Trust. It is part of my vow, I say yes to where I am called and serve with a grateful heart. That yes means Trust, and I say yes, again and again.
This is going to be quite the journey. I Trust it will unfold just as it needs too. I invite you to share your word (s) for 2015. Blessings and love to you.